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Mom's vids

Here are the links to the videos from my mother's wake and funeral.  Eventually I should have one or both of them visible from my profile, but for now here are the links.

This is the slide show from the wake:
http://blip.tv/file/368114

This is the video from the funeral. It is similar to the slideshow from the wake, but it includes a section with joy speaking:
http://blip.tv/file/370297

I've been thinking about my mom as I sit here all night at work and you know what?  It sucks.  It's easy to say "well we had 10 good months with her and got to spend Christmas with her and at least she got to know her grandchildren yada yada yada.  But it sucks.  She'll never get to meet my children and they will never have a grandmother.  My future children will never get to hear her sing.  They'll never get to taste her home made bread or help her grind wheat into flour as she teaches them to make caramel rolls or southern lassies.  She'll never sing at my wedding, and I'll never get to hear her in the Chippewa Valley Gospel Choir or in another musical.  We'll never get to go to Scotland together, or see Phantom of the Opera in London.  We never even got to go to Broadway together.  She'll never get to see me in another play, even if it's just a crappy show at the Heidy Center (sp?).   We'll never get to read another book together.  I remember reading Lawhead's Pendragon Cycle with her and both of us being in tears and neither of us being able to keep reading.  I remember her reading Lewis to James and me when I was only 4 or 5.  I used to try to explain half the plot of a Prattchet book just to try to tell her one of the jokes in it. 

            Not that this is any easier for James, but at least he has a family of his own now.  He's halfway across the country and has children of his own, and however young they are they still got to meet their grandmother.  Don't get me wrong, this isn't meant to be a "oh why, poor old me" rant.  I've never been angry at God during this whole ordeal, I've never asked why her, or why our family should go through this.  I know that God is sovereign and to question what has happened is pointless and even counter-productive.  But knowing that doesn't change the fact that this sucks.  I'm tired and sad and fucking angry.  Not angry at God or the doctors or anything like that…just, angry.  I don't know how long I'm gonna last before I just freak out and lose it. 

Gone

For

For those of you who I have not told directly or have not heard through the grape vine, my mother passed away last Monday, July 23, at about 3:30 PM. Neither my father nor I was able to be there when she passed, (we were about 15 minutes late, and it’s a wonder neither of us got a ticket on the way there) but my aunt, her sister was with her when she died. I owe several of you an apology for not telling you sooner, however the week has been hectic to say the least, and the last 5 days are something of a blur.

The wake/viewing will be held this Sunday, the 29^{th, from 4-8PM at Peterson-Volkler (sp?) funeral home in Chippewa Falls. The funeral will be the following day (Monday) at 11AM at the Chippewa Valley Bible Church in Chippewa near K-Mart. The interment will be private on Tuesday at the veteran’s memorial cemetery near Spooner where she will be buried near her mother and where my grandfather and, presumably, father, will someday be laid to rest as well.}

A special thanks from myself and my family to everyone who: donated, weather a lot or a little, to help pay for her medical bills, all those who helped with her care, and most of all, all of you who have kept my family and I in your thoughts and prayers over the last 10 difficult months. Thank you.

weeks to live

So, after my second depressing party rant in a row I was planning my next blog to be goofy or funny or at least have some real news.  I have some news but it's not humerous in the least.  The radiation and chemo to treat my mother's brain tumor did absolutely nothing.  They give her a couple weeks to live.  For more details check out her sight at www.joywolfe.com .